Days of Hiding Out

Well, I haven't felt my best. That's why I didn't write yesterday. I've had some horrible news and feel very sad these days. I've been avoiding my parents. I figure they can manage without me until I can get myself back together again. I am not sleeping well, even with aid of medication. When I do finally sleep, I get nightmares. I feel physically and mentally empty. I can't find energy to move. I am not motivated to do much. The last conversation I had with Heinz was to tell him that I was feeling horrible because he didn't call me after my mother had taken a fall and that he was negligent in not taking her to a doctor. I was very mad and told him that they were both reckless and irresponsible. I haven't heard from either of them since. The weather has been bad. Fall has come with a vengence. Lots of rain and wind. Enough to knock the power out for about an hour. Of course I tried to check on my parents during the outage, but couldn't because they have this digital device attached to their phone lines because Heinz feels that it is imperative for him to have a fax machine. Due to that, whenver the power is out, I can't even call them. Another crazy fact. Makes absolutely no sense for seniors, but I've tried to talk to them about it to no avail. Another day in lala land.